These are pictures of my mother, she died 4 years ago today. Sometimes it feels like she has been gone 5 minutes, sometimes it feels like she has been gone a lifetime. The pain of losing her has subsided. I no longer feel that ache, that hole where she once was. I can now get through, birthday's Christmas's, mother's days and anniversaries without crying.
This does not mean I don't think about her or miss her. I do. I have thought about her everyday since she died and I miss her.
I miss being able to pick up the phone and speak to her, to ask her advice and cooking and knitting, to hear the gossip from the village or to hear the stories that she had told me 100 times before.
The night she died will be forever imprinted in me, we sat there with her as she died. I am so glad that she was not on her own and she knew that she was loved.
Tonight we went to her grave and left some tulips for her.
I Love you Mom.
