on being fat

I am fat, obese, grossly obese, morbidly obese, chunky, big boned, heavy set, voluptuous.

And Happy.

I know, what a shock! I do not look in the mirror and think I look ugly. I look in the mirror and think , that's me.

Yes I am often on diets, this is to try and make myself live longer, yes thats my only worry is that by being fat I am making my life shorter. I am about to start my summer walking challenge, which I enjoy. I love doing the GCC steps challenge, I enjoy exersize. I love swimming and walking and cycling.

The reason why diets are fairly short lived is that I have no real desire to be thin.

When people look at me they see a fat person, often people judge you for being fat, think you are lazy and lack self control.

When people talk about their drinking or smoking I do not think that they lack control. I very rarely drink. have not smoked in 6 years, but continue to eat what I enjoy eating.

 I love my food, I enjoy food. I love creating food to eat and to share.

Being fat is frustrating. mainly due to shopping. I can just fit into Monsoon xl size 22. Not all of their styles suit me so I am limited. I love Monsoon dresses. I also love laura ashley clothes but they do not go above an 18/20. I can do M&S and John Rocher at Debenhams. Then there is Evans. hmm good old Evans its there for when there is nothing else. There are only a few styles I like in there. new look is for younger people than  I.

Well I had better crack on with the housework, We have guests for Sunday Lunch tomorrow and I will be doing a full roast. Roast chicken. yum. (oh and a veggie main as well) followed by banoffee pie.

happy weekend.